Breaking The Habit

how can this be happening?
i didn't ever want this
my hands are moving by themselves
even though inside i'm screaming
STOP! STOP! STOP!
i get more desperate
but nothing seems to work
it feels like some monster
has locked its claws in me
the monster is invisible
the monster controls me
and i can't obey my own free will
my thoughts are all my own
but what my body does is not
anything for me to choose
it makes me feel so empty
like i've got nothing left
i think that was the last time
but none of it is true
it rips apart my insides
but the monster doesn't care
why do my my hands still move
if inside i'm trying my hardest
to stop the motion
its such a easy thing
or so it would seem
to just decide not to
but its easier said than done
i can't control myself
and i don't know why
thats is the reason
its hard to
break.the.habit.